Three Is Greater Than

Have any of you ever used <3 to say love?  I was just looking at it and thinking of the meaning of numbers.  I was also just doing math before thinking this, so it was all fresh in my head. 

Three is the number of God.  God the Father, God the Son, and God the Holy Spirit.  Three.

And then there is the greather than sign just before the three.  Logically (which is apperantly what math is), this little figure means blank is less than three.  Or, reading backwards, three is greater than blank.

Replace three with God.  God is greater than (insert whatever thing you can think of right here).

Pretty cool, huh?

And it's the symbol for love as well.  When I realized that I just sat there and went, "Huh!  Imagine that!"

Well, that's all I had to say.  Except that I will be posting more.  Hopefully.

See y'all 'round!

Tears and Fears and Maybe Something Else

It's amazing how quickly the things I cried over changed.  Late at night, instead of crying about being the outsider, the girl no one really pays attention too,  I've been crying for other reasons.  I sometimes don't even know WHY I'm crying.  I just cry.  It's been really hard these last two months.  Really hard.  I hide my pain and only really cry at night, when no one will see me.  But my hurt, my pain, it's all there.  I feel it nearly every moment of the day.  God has been there for me.  He has helped me this far, and He will help me the rest of the way. 

My fears have changed too.  I no longer am as terrified of people as I was this time last year.  I'm in my mid teens, and last year I was afraid to even buy things at a store without someone I know there.  I hated being so scared.  I wasn't really scared of someone hurting me, just afraid of people in general.  They make me nervous.  So nervous I can barely squeak out 'Hi' in reponse to them.  That fear has increased in insane amounts.  God has helped me so much with that.  My drama group helped me come out of my shell as well.  I don't know why I wasn;t scared stiff on the stage, but I wasn't.  Not completly, anyway.

My fear of people has been around since I was really little.  I nearly refused my first ride on a horse because I was scared of my cousins (They had the horses).  But I did that and really liked it.  But I still struggle with fear.  It helps to remember that God did not make us to be creatures of fear, but He made us to be strong in Him.

Strong in God.  Sounds perfect to me.  I know I cannot carry on on my own.  I need His help.  I need Him.  He is my Light, my Strength, my Life.  One of my favorite verses is in Philipians.  "I can do all things, through Christ who strengthens me."  Amazing.  I can do anything!  Because God gives me strength! 

One time I was house and cat sitting for my neighbours while they were away for a while.  They have a picture thing on the wall.  It has a Bible verse on it from one of the 'H' books in the Old Testemant.  I don't remember the exact words, but it said that God sings for us.  God, our mighty Creator, singing, for US!  It blew me away.  I walked home in a daze because it was so overwelming.  It was a 'wow' moment.  I'm still awaed by the fact that my Creator sings for His lowley creation.

Sometimes a Bandaid just isn't Enough

They say your life can change in the blink of an eye.  That it can be turned upside down in the blink of an eye.  It's true for me.  For some, it's winning the lottery.  For others, moving to a new country.  For me, it was three words.  Three horrible words my dad said.

"I have cancer."

Some of the most horrible words I've ever heard. EVER!

How do you go on after that?  Just hang onto God, just hang onto God.  That's all I can really do right now.

When all seems lost,

Look to God.

When all seems hopeless,

Look to God.

When all seems wrong,

Look to God.

For He is the finder of the lost,

The giver of hope,

And He rights all wrongs.

Look to God.