Please, if anyone, anyone at all reads what I have to say, please watch this video. Please see what Cassie has to say. It is SO important! And if any of you have questions, I'll do my best to answer. I can't promise I'll have answers to all of them, but I'll try. Just leave a comment.
God be with you my friends.
Monday 28 November 2011
Friday 25 November 2011
A New Match
You would remember yesterday when I was feeling so down. Today is different. (Oh how I love female hormones! NOT!!)
Today I look out the window. It's a differnt window this time. Is see soft shadows cast on the garage roof. Tall, graceful trees reach high. Their leaves don't seem as brown today. They're more of a yellowy green. And today I see the evergreens as well. They too reach high. Higher even than the trees with leaves. The ky is not gray any longer. It's a glorious blue, though it is half covered by clouds. But these clouds aren't the single gray plane I veiwed yesterday. Today, the top of the clouds shine out white, the bottoms are gray with a touch of blue. They drif accross the sky from left to right, like when you read the pages of a book. The sunshine is golden and warm.
My mood may not exactlymatch what I see outside, but it sure is better than yesterday! I don't feel the same lifelessness as before. I can see the green in the leaves now. And my sky is a beautiful blue.
What a glorious change.
Tonight I'm going laser tagging with my new youth group. Oh that's right! I haven't updated you on my youth situation!
Let's start at the beggining (a very good place to start!).
This year I have gone to youth group at a church in town, instead of youth at my church. You see, my church has all of six kids who are of youth age (meaning kids from twelve to seventeen). And not all of us came to youth. So after a while, Mr. F (our over-sixty year old youth leader), decided that this year youth would be the exact opposite of last year. Instead of 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's youth', it became 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's no youth'. Yeah, that's really what happened!
So, my cousin An and I (yes, gramaticly correct would be 'me' in that sentance, but whatever) decided to try a youth group in town. Well, I convinced her of it. But the first time we went, we accidently ended up tagging along on the junior youth's night out. So that was... intersting. There were a couple of 'mature' juniors there, so we talked with them and the senior who had come along to help out. All in all, it wasn't a bad night.
Then the next time we went to the proper age group. There, I won half of the games we played and gained two Micky D gift cards as a prize. And I gained a small reputation as the girl who wins. So it was fun.
Then I went to California for a wedding, came home, and went to youth again. Then I was off to Saskatchewan for a fun event. I missed one time then. I came home sick and stayed sick long enough to miss another time. The day I was feeling better, my brother and I were in the movie rental store picking out something for family night. There we ran into our neighbour and a girl I can only assume was his girlfriend. She definantly wasn't his sister. Anyways, he asked what we had been doing lately (not much, was my brother's reply) and I said I'd been gone and then been sick. And then he nodded and said that that must be why I wasn't at youth. I was only able to nod. As far as I know, NO ONE has ever noticed I've been gone before! The next time I was able to go to youth, An told be thatshe wouldn't have to answer questions about me being gone this time. Naturally, me being the quiet girl I am, I was amazed that people had not only noticed I was gone, but asked where I was!
So that was interesting.
And now this week (today, tonight really), the senior youth is goin' out laser tagging. It's gonna be fun! (I hope)
Today I look out the window. It's a differnt window this time. Is see soft shadows cast on the garage roof. Tall, graceful trees reach high. Their leaves don't seem as brown today. They're more of a yellowy green. And today I see the evergreens as well. They too reach high. Higher even than the trees with leaves. The ky is not gray any longer. It's a glorious blue, though it is half covered by clouds. But these clouds aren't the single gray plane I veiwed yesterday. Today, the top of the clouds shine out white, the bottoms are gray with a touch of blue. They drif accross the sky from left to right, like when you read the pages of a book. The sunshine is golden and warm.
My mood may not exactlymatch what I see outside, but it sure is better than yesterday! I don't feel the same lifelessness as before. I can see the green in the leaves now. And my sky is a beautiful blue.
What a glorious change.
Tonight I'm going laser tagging with my new youth group. Oh that's right! I haven't updated you on my youth situation!
Let's start at the beggining (a very good place to start!).
This year I have gone to youth group at a church in town, instead of youth at my church. You see, my church has all of six kids who are of youth age (meaning kids from twelve to seventeen). And not all of us came to youth. So after a while, Mr. F (our over-sixty year old youth leader), decided that this year youth would be the exact opposite of last year. Instead of 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's youth', it became 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's no youth'. Yeah, that's really what happened!
So, my cousin An and I (yes, gramaticly correct would be 'me' in that sentance, but whatever) decided to try a youth group in town. Well, I convinced her of it. But the first time we went, we accidently ended up tagging along on the junior youth's night out. So that was... intersting. There were a couple of 'mature' juniors there, so we talked with them and the senior who had come along to help out. All in all, it wasn't a bad night.
Then the next time we went to the proper age group. There, I won half of the games we played and gained two Micky D gift cards as a prize. And I gained a small reputation as the girl who wins. So it was fun.
Then I went to California for a wedding, came home, and went to youth again. Then I was off to Saskatchewan for a fun event. I missed one time then. I came home sick and stayed sick long enough to miss another time. The day I was feeling better, my brother and I were in the movie rental store picking out something for family night. There we ran into our neighbour and a girl I can only assume was his girlfriend. She definantly wasn't his sister. Anyways, he asked what we had been doing lately (not much, was my brother's reply) and I said I'd been gone and then been sick. And then he nodded and said that that must be why I wasn't at youth. I was only able to nod. As far as I know, NO ONE has ever noticed I've been gone before! The next time I was able to go to youth, An told be thatshe wouldn't have to answer questions about me being gone this time. Naturally, me being the quiet girl I am, I was amazed that people had not only noticed I was gone, but asked where I was!
So that was interesting.
And now this week (today, tonight really), the senior youth is goin' out laser tagging. It's gonna be fun! (I hope)
Thursday 24 November 2011
Matching
Today I looked out the window of my room. The sky was gray and the trees looked dead, with few leaves clinging to them. That's when I thought that's exactly how I feel. Gray and colourless, the leaves just barely hangin on though they're already dead and brown. I feel depressed, just like the sky. I feel lifeless, just wandering through life, like the tree with dead leaves. And I wonder, how do I get out of this? I wake up every morning and don't want to leave my bed, for I know that I'll just be sloggin through another day, loaded with schoolwork and other things. I stare at the computer screen, lacking the motivation to get on with it and do my school.
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