Today I have learned a very sad and shocking fact! It is something I have been dreading for over eleven years and it has finally come to pass!
Get ready...
You may as well brace yourselves.
....
My little brother is taller than me by several inches. I am now the shortest in my family!
Yeah, yeah. You probably didn't need to brace yourselves.
But understand that I am a mere inch away from being the lofty height of six feet tall and my little brother is now taller than me by about two inches! So he is around six foot one. He's the second tallest with my older brother being six foot eight.
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Saturday, 11 February 2012
Friday, 25 November 2011
A New Match
You would remember yesterday when I was feeling so down. Today is different. (Oh how I love female hormones! NOT!!)
Today I look out the window. It's a differnt window this time. Is see soft shadows cast on the garage roof. Tall, graceful trees reach high. Their leaves don't seem as brown today. They're more of a yellowy green. And today I see the evergreens as well. They too reach high. Higher even than the trees with leaves. The ky is not gray any longer. It's a glorious blue, though it is half covered by clouds. But these clouds aren't the single gray plane I veiwed yesterday. Today, the top of the clouds shine out white, the bottoms are gray with a touch of blue. They drif accross the sky from left to right, like when you read the pages of a book. The sunshine is golden and warm.
My mood may not exactlymatch what I see outside, but it sure is better than yesterday! I don't feel the same lifelessness as before. I can see the green in the leaves now. And my sky is a beautiful blue.
What a glorious change.
Tonight I'm going laser tagging with my new youth group. Oh that's right! I haven't updated you on my youth situation!
Let's start at the beggining (a very good place to start!).
This year I have gone to youth group at a church in town, instead of youth at my church. You see, my church has all of six kids who are of youth age (meaning kids from twelve to seventeen). And not all of us came to youth. So after a while, Mr. F (our over-sixty year old youth leader), decided that this year youth would be the exact opposite of last year. Instead of 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's youth', it became 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's no youth'. Yeah, that's really what happened!
So, my cousin An and I (yes, gramaticly correct would be 'me' in that sentance, but whatever) decided to try a youth group in town. Well, I convinced her of it. But the first time we went, we accidently ended up tagging along on the junior youth's night out. So that was... intersting. There were a couple of 'mature' juniors there, so we talked with them and the senior who had come along to help out. All in all, it wasn't a bad night.
Then the next time we went to the proper age group. There, I won half of the games we played and gained two Micky D gift cards as a prize. And I gained a small reputation as the girl who wins. So it was fun.
Then I went to California for a wedding, came home, and went to youth again. Then I was off to Saskatchewan for a fun event. I missed one time then. I came home sick and stayed sick long enough to miss another time. The day I was feeling better, my brother and I were in the movie rental store picking out something for family night. There we ran into our neighbour and a girl I can only assume was his girlfriend. She definantly wasn't his sister. Anyways, he asked what we had been doing lately (not much, was my brother's reply) and I said I'd been gone and then been sick. And then he nodded and said that that must be why I wasn't at youth. I was only able to nod. As far as I know, NO ONE has ever noticed I've been gone before! The next time I was able to go to youth, An told be thatshe wouldn't have to answer questions about me being gone this time. Naturally, me being the quiet girl I am, I was amazed that people had not only noticed I was gone, but asked where I was!
So that was interesting.
And now this week (today, tonight really), the senior youth is goin' out laser tagging. It's gonna be fun! (I hope)
Today I look out the window. It's a differnt window this time. Is see soft shadows cast on the garage roof. Tall, graceful trees reach high. Their leaves don't seem as brown today. They're more of a yellowy green. And today I see the evergreens as well. They too reach high. Higher even than the trees with leaves. The ky is not gray any longer. It's a glorious blue, though it is half covered by clouds. But these clouds aren't the single gray plane I veiwed yesterday. Today, the top of the clouds shine out white, the bottoms are gray with a touch of blue. They drif accross the sky from left to right, like when you read the pages of a book. The sunshine is golden and warm.
My mood may not exactlymatch what I see outside, but it sure is better than yesterday! I don't feel the same lifelessness as before. I can see the green in the leaves now. And my sky is a beautiful blue.
What a glorious change.
Tonight I'm going laser tagging with my new youth group. Oh that's right! I haven't updated you on my youth situation!
Let's start at the beggining (a very good place to start!).
This year I have gone to youth group at a church in town, instead of youth at my church. You see, my church has all of six kids who are of youth age (meaning kids from twelve to seventeen). And not all of us came to youth. So after a while, Mr. F (our over-sixty year old youth leader), decided that this year youth would be the exact opposite of last year. Instead of 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's youth', it became 'if you don't get a call otherwise, assume there's no youth'. Yeah, that's really what happened!
So, my cousin An and I (yes, gramaticly correct would be 'me' in that sentance, but whatever) decided to try a youth group in town. Well, I convinced her of it. But the first time we went, we accidently ended up tagging along on the junior youth's night out. So that was... intersting. There were a couple of 'mature' juniors there, so we talked with them and the senior who had come along to help out. All in all, it wasn't a bad night.
Then the next time we went to the proper age group. There, I won half of the games we played and gained two Micky D gift cards as a prize. And I gained a small reputation as the girl who wins. So it was fun.
Then I went to California for a wedding, came home, and went to youth again. Then I was off to Saskatchewan for a fun event. I missed one time then. I came home sick and stayed sick long enough to miss another time. The day I was feeling better, my brother and I were in the movie rental store picking out something for family night. There we ran into our neighbour and a girl I can only assume was his girlfriend. She definantly wasn't his sister. Anyways, he asked what we had been doing lately (not much, was my brother's reply) and I said I'd been gone and then been sick. And then he nodded and said that that must be why I wasn't at youth. I was only able to nod. As far as I know, NO ONE has ever noticed I've been gone before! The next time I was able to go to youth, An told be thatshe wouldn't have to answer questions about me being gone this time. Naturally, me being the quiet girl I am, I was amazed that people had not only noticed I was gone, but asked where I was!
So that was interesting.
And now this week (today, tonight really), the senior youth is goin' out laser tagging. It's gonna be fun! (I hope)
Friday, 27 May 2011
Tears and Fears and Maybe Something Else
It's amazing how quickly the things I cried over changed. Late at night, instead of crying about being the outsider, the girl no one really pays attention too, I've been crying for other reasons. I sometimes don't even know WHY I'm crying. I just cry. It's been really hard these last two months. Really hard. I hide my pain and only really cry at night, when no one will see me. But my hurt, my pain, it's all there. I feel it nearly every moment of the day. God has been there for me. He has helped me this far, and He will help me the rest of the way.
My fears have changed too. I no longer am as terrified of people as I was this time last year. I'm in my mid teens, and last year I was afraid to even buy things at a store without someone I know there. I hated being so scared. I wasn't really scared of someone hurting me, just afraid of people in general. They make me nervous. So nervous I can barely squeak out 'Hi' in reponse to them. That fear has increased in insane amounts. God has helped me so much with that. My drama group helped me come out of my shell as well. I don't know why I wasn;t scared stiff on the stage, but I wasn't. Not completly, anyway.
My fear of people has been around since I was really little. I nearly refused my first ride on a horse because I was scared of my cousins (They had the horses). But I did that and really liked it. But I still struggle with fear. It helps to remember that God did not make us to be creatures of fear, but He made us to be strong in Him.
Strong in God. Sounds perfect to me. I know I cannot carry on on my own. I need His help. I need Him. He is my Light, my Strength, my Life. One of my favorite verses is in Philipians. "I can do all things, through Christ who strengthens me." Amazing. I can do anything! Because God gives me strength!
One time I was house and cat sitting for my neighbours while they were away for a while. They have a picture thing on the wall. It has a Bible verse on it from one of the 'H' books in the Old Testemant. I don't remember the exact words, but it said that God sings for us. God, our mighty Creator, singing, for US! It blew me away. I walked home in a daze because it was so overwelming. It was a 'wow' moment. I'm still awaed by the fact that my Creator sings for His lowley creation.
My fears have changed too. I no longer am as terrified of people as I was this time last year. I'm in my mid teens, and last year I was afraid to even buy things at a store without someone I know there. I hated being so scared. I wasn't really scared of someone hurting me, just afraid of people in general. They make me nervous. So nervous I can barely squeak out 'Hi' in reponse to them. That fear has increased in insane amounts. God has helped me so much with that. My drama group helped me come out of my shell as well. I don't know why I wasn;t scared stiff on the stage, but I wasn't. Not completly, anyway.
My fear of people has been around since I was really little. I nearly refused my first ride on a horse because I was scared of my cousins (They had the horses). But I did that and really liked it. But I still struggle with fear. It helps to remember that God did not make us to be creatures of fear, but He made us to be strong in Him.
Strong in God. Sounds perfect to me. I know I cannot carry on on my own. I need His help. I need Him. He is my Light, my Strength, my Life. One of my favorite verses is in Philipians. "I can do all things, through Christ who strengthens me." Amazing. I can do anything! Because God gives me strength!
One time I was house and cat sitting for my neighbours while they were away for a while. They have a picture thing on the wall. It has a Bible verse on it from one of the 'H' books in the Old Testemant. I don't remember the exact words, but it said that God sings for us. God, our mighty Creator, singing, for US! It blew me away. I walked home in a daze because it was so overwelming. It was a 'wow' moment. I'm still awaed by the fact that my Creator sings for His lowley creation.
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