Today I have learned a very sad and shocking fact! It is something I have been dreading for over eleven years and it has finally come to pass!
Get ready...
You may as well brace yourselves.
....
My little brother is taller than me by several inches. I am now the shortest in my family!
Yeah, yeah. You probably didn't need to brace yourselves.
But understand that I am a mere inch away from being the lofty height of six feet tall and my little brother is now taller than me by about two inches! So he is around six foot one. He's the second tallest with my older brother being six foot eight.
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Saturday, 11 February 2012
Friday, 27 May 2011
Tears and Fears and Maybe Something Else
It's amazing how quickly the things I cried over changed. Late at night, instead of crying about being the outsider, the girl no one really pays attention too, I've been crying for other reasons. I sometimes don't even know WHY I'm crying. I just cry. It's been really hard these last two months. Really hard. I hide my pain and only really cry at night, when no one will see me. But my hurt, my pain, it's all there. I feel it nearly every moment of the day. God has been there for me. He has helped me this far, and He will help me the rest of the way.
My fears have changed too. I no longer am as terrified of people as I was this time last year. I'm in my mid teens, and last year I was afraid to even buy things at a store without someone I know there. I hated being so scared. I wasn't really scared of someone hurting me, just afraid of people in general. They make me nervous. So nervous I can barely squeak out 'Hi' in reponse to them. That fear has increased in insane amounts. God has helped me so much with that. My drama group helped me come out of my shell as well. I don't know why I wasn;t scared stiff on the stage, but I wasn't. Not completly, anyway.
My fear of people has been around since I was really little. I nearly refused my first ride on a horse because I was scared of my cousins (They had the horses). But I did that and really liked it. But I still struggle with fear. It helps to remember that God did not make us to be creatures of fear, but He made us to be strong in Him.
Strong in God. Sounds perfect to me. I know I cannot carry on on my own. I need His help. I need Him. He is my Light, my Strength, my Life. One of my favorite verses is in Philipians. "I can do all things, through Christ who strengthens me." Amazing. I can do anything! Because God gives me strength!
One time I was house and cat sitting for my neighbours while they were away for a while. They have a picture thing on the wall. It has a Bible verse on it from one of the 'H' books in the Old Testemant. I don't remember the exact words, but it said that God sings for us. God, our mighty Creator, singing, for US! It blew me away. I walked home in a daze because it was so overwelming. It was a 'wow' moment. I'm still awaed by the fact that my Creator sings for His lowley creation.
My fears have changed too. I no longer am as terrified of people as I was this time last year. I'm in my mid teens, and last year I was afraid to even buy things at a store without someone I know there. I hated being so scared. I wasn't really scared of someone hurting me, just afraid of people in general. They make me nervous. So nervous I can barely squeak out 'Hi' in reponse to them. That fear has increased in insane amounts. God has helped me so much with that. My drama group helped me come out of my shell as well. I don't know why I wasn;t scared stiff on the stage, but I wasn't. Not completly, anyway.
My fear of people has been around since I was really little. I nearly refused my first ride on a horse because I was scared of my cousins (They had the horses). But I did that and really liked it. But I still struggle with fear. It helps to remember that God did not make us to be creatures of fear, but He made us to be strong in Him.
Strong in God. Sounds perfect to me. I know I cannot carry on on my own. I need His help. I need Him. He is my Light, my Strength, my Life. One of my favorite verses is in Philipians. "I can do all things, through Christ who strengthens me." Amazing. I can do anything! Because God gives me strength!
One time I was house and cat sitting for my neighbours while they were away for a while. They have a picture thing on the wall. It has a Bible verse on it from one of the 'H' books in the Old Testemant. I don't remember the exact words, but it said that God sings for us. God, our mighty Creator, singing, for US! It blew me away. I walked home in a daze because it was so overwelming. It was a 'wow' moment. I'm still awaed by the fact that my Creator sings for His lowley creation.
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